I think what messes me up the most is that I have this perfect picture in my mind of how things are supposed to be.
And fuck … I don’t know anything at all about this perfectness.
And I find myself praying I don’t die ’cause my mind is so freaking rested and it’s starting to scare me with all it’s pointless thoughts.
There are things I’m afraid to say, people I’m afraid to love, places I’m afraid to go.
I’m giving up too easily on people, on me.
I’m feeling tired these days when all I want is to be brave enough to live.